The Mantra for today will be,
I will follow my heart. I will love myself. I will see myself. I will be myself.
We are (as a society) surrounded with a lot of ‘shoulds’ in comparison to others, only to find that those people who we look at who somehow got it ‘right’ were only faking it in the first place. There wasn’t a rulebook that told them this is the correct path to follow. They made their own road.
What if the new path you decide to take, because you are following your heart, leads you to something you never even thought of? The road you are following now? Does that make you feel safe? Does that give you comfort to know where your life is heading? Or does that leave you wondering and longing for something different?
I’m not a perfect being by any measure. I wear my heart on my sleeve and I have made a fool of myself in my small community here on Facebook, Twitter, and in the ‘real’ world more than once. You’ve seen me go from relationship to relationship, band to band, state to state, etc. In my own defense (and I’m only defending myself for sake of this blog); I love completely and unabashedly. I look at everything and everyone as something new and magical. I don’t look at the past to compare because I know if I do I will close this heart of mine. I just can’t do that. My hope is that in your own way you love just as much and with as much zest as you can muster and that you can push it a little more each time. Sure, you’ll get hurt. But the next time you’ll have a little more clarity and there will be a little more growth. And then you’ll be like those people that you ‘should’ be like and making it up for yourself.
Here are a few tools to use on your new path.
Write 3 pages every morning. Don’t think. Just write. If you’re only writing ‘blah blah blah’ or ‘I have no idea what to write’, at least you are writing. Trust me. Something will eventually start flowing. Don’t look for it. Don’t wait for it. Just do it.
Meditate for 10 minutes in the morning to start. Clear your mind. Close your eyes. If you want more direction in this I recommend a course on meditation. I’ve done a couple. The one that I HIGHLY recommend is with a friend and mentor of mine, Julie Zipper.
If you are feeling a shortage of time or money, your best effort would be to focus upon better-feeling thoughts, and do more things that make you feel good. Your time is a perceptual thing, and even though the clock is ticking the same for everyone, your alignment affects your perception, as well as the results that you allow. As you observe the enormous differences in the effort that people apply and the results they achieve, you have to conclude that there is more to the equation of achieving than action alone. — Abraham
This past month has been quite the rollercoaster. Let me tell you what I did to get off of it.
I’ve had my days where I was completely down in the dumps questioning everything. Why am I here? Who am I ‘really’? What is my soul purpose? What the hell am I doing here in L.A.? You name it, my head was swimming in this fog. And no matter what I did it kept getting worse. My days became a paralysis of nothing. Sitting here and thinking about what was ‘wrong’. This went on for a little more than a week, er, maybe a bit longer. It was crazy.
The final straw was when I got a call from the Country Band telling me that it just wasn’t working out. Humiliation!! Getting kicked out of a Country Band? OK… truth be told… it was a relief. My heart wasn’t in it and I was grueling over it. I was hyper-focused on what I didn’t have. Money. I was in it for the money alone. Not for my love of country music. Nothing against country music, nor its fans. It’s just not my calling.
See the pattern? I was completely focused on what I didn’t have. On what was lacking in my life instead the incredible beauty in my life. I have a gorgeous girlfriend, a supportive family, a roof over my head, my health, great friends AND I have my voice. And I DO have music projects going on. Everything is moving and progressing forward perfectly. Maybe not as fast as I would like, but that is just EGO telling me that because it isn’t happening now it will never happen. BOLOGNE!
Rev. Cheryl Ward mentions about ‘Microwaving’. We want everything NOW. Have you ever stopped to think that maybe now doesn’t serve you? That its quite possible that the gestation period of whatever manifestation you are trying to manifest needs time?
And you know what that time is?
It’s not that it can’t happen instantaneously. It can. But we don’t believe it. And we aren’t in the mindset to take advantage of it, nor appreciate it. Sometimes we are. But most times we are not. That’s why that quote above is so important. We have to focus upon better-feeling thoughts, and do more things that make us feel good. And honestly. It was within a blink of an eye when the transformation happened.
Yesterday was magic! Everything just fell into place. And I started to notice the pattern. The days where I’m flying high, feeling great and not worried about the outcome are the days where I get those phone calls, where I get those emails.
Its so fricken easy it’s silly.
So. Feel Good. Focus on right NOW. Focus on something, anything but the lack in your life.
Ok.. I stole the heading for this blog from a quote my friend Aviva made. She is making some bold moves in her life and ever since she decided to follow her gut, things have been changing for her. Her mantra is; Follow your gut, do your due diligence and let the Universe provide what it will.
I can relate to this completely. I have been walking to the beat of my own drum for the last year or so. Not an easy quest, but very gratifying. I have my days (last night) where I go into total panic mode and wonder if I’m really the spiritual being that I profess to be. Nobody is perfect.
I spend the last 17 days in Massachusetts with my friend Heidi. Both of us got our Level II Reiki Certification and are open to the possibilites that it offers. We are both insanely excited about this.
I have officially left ‘The Constant’ as their lead vocalist. I wish them luck in their future ventures.
As for myself, the album with Ged Rylands in the UK is still being worked on as well as still completing an album with Chris Melekyan.
I’m open to new Vocal work if you know of anybody looking.